March 2012
February 2012
One of my best friends and favourite people came over tonight because I’ve been crying non stop and I needed someone just to take my mind off of things. He is absolutely fab and has helped me loads. I’ve been talking to my friend who passed away this morning’s best friend and he’s been telling me that in her last few weeks she felt like I was the only person who loved her...
Seriously off my face right now.
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I get paid tomorrow so I’m gonna figure out who’s I can get to and go there and just cuddle all day and I think that that’ll work to make me feel better. Yup.
I don’t know whether it’s the Tamazepam or whether it’s what’s happened today.. But I feel numb. Really, really numb.
Today I got the news one of my friends died. I am so devastated. Can’t stop crying at all. I’m not even sure how to deal with it anymore.. But it’s helped me decide my next tattoo.
Off to probably have a panic attack and cry a lot.
I need a holiday or something. I haven’t been away in so long and I’ve got that feeling where I need to be somewhere other than here. I hate and love this feeling.
Not even sure about much anymore.
I’m being irritated by a lot of things. Like how I’m a second thought to some people and how people are acting. I just want to go out and drink some cider and have a laugh, but I can’t do that because then I might die tomorrow. Plus mum’s taking me to her fat club so she can finally make me tone up. Lovely.
Eating all the food I can because i can’t eat tomorrow. I bet I’ll still be hungry tomorrow though.
frickers:
It truly upsets me that Sarah Jessica Parker was not nominated for her stunning performance in War Horse.
I really want someone to come with me when I get my teeth done tomorrow. I don’t know if they’re gonna gas me or try and stick needles in me and I’m scared and I’ll probably be less scared if there’s someone with me. But I don’t wanna beg anyone to come with me.
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People always wake me up by bbming me recently. Not cool.
Gotta start putting things into perspective a lot more. Sick and tired of having bullshit little things affect me still even though they happened ages ago now. Not everyone is gonna be cruel and mean to me, so I gotta stop expecting it and stressing over things.
Operation on Tuesday. Not looking forward to.
Ignoring people is cool too. Y’know.
Just chilling in the sunshine with cigarettes and music. Pretty happy.
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Walking through a dark alley in Diss, on the phone and some chav on a bike comes up behind me and goes ‘Hello beautiful’. Scared the shit outta me.
So fucking pissed off you would not believe.